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That's the only way I know how to describe everything that's been going on.

I work my butt off, everyday of every week. My team and I are always busy and always doing things with City Year. Aside from that, I try to stay social with the people I have met here so I do a bit of going out in addition to working.

Work has been crazy. We are still putting in about 60 hours every week but now our team is starting to get the hang of things so we are much more efficient. Our morale has been bottoming out a lot, however, as people are started to get burnt out on lunch visits and too many things being required everyday from us. We are working on fixing that which has required us to have a lot of meetings with our boss and the team as a whole. Which, looking back on it, causes us to only get more behind. Every Friday we do events with the entire corps. This past Friday (aka yesterday) was good. But traditionally the Fridays have sucked. Normally, every Friday I will question myself as to why I'm even in City Year. Yesterday was the exception. We had the first LDD committee presentation on Domestic Violence. LDDs are put together and ran by corps members, so the entire day is different than normal and was a lot more interesting. My LDD presentation is November 30th on Substance Abuse. Woooooo.... yeah, not so much.

Soccer hasn't been happening. Mainly because of my damn toe injuries from a month ago. However, last Monday a clinic I went to decided to just pull the toenail out. They gave me a few shots around the toe to numb it and then had me lay back. The lady asked me about what I want to do after City Year and by the time I was done telling that I am interested in getting my PhD in Physical Therapy she had my toenail out. I didn't even feel it happen. But the pain was gone. All of it. I was in a little bootie for a few days and then tried shoes. Shoes were fine so I tried running. Running was fine. Now tomorrow I am going to retry soccer. We'll see how that goes. I am really excited to get back out there though. I wish that the toenail that was also injured but that didn't get infected would just come out as well. That would make everything perfect. The one good thing about this is that the clinic I went to (a walk-in by the way, I had to be there by 630am by bus) gave me a note that will get me free healthcare until April 9th because of my low income and the things I still have to pay out every month.

We also go out on the weekends quite a bit.

I've also been thinking a lot about what I'm going to do after City Year. I know that I don't want to do another term at CY. It's just after that where I am unsure. A big part of me wants to go on and get my PhD in Physical Therapy and return to what I've always said I was going to do. I love healthcare and serving people, so that seems to be a very safe bet. Another part of me is very worried about going back to more school. I've also been throwing around the ideas of fire paramedic or even a cop as a jump start to something like the DEA. But I dunno. I hope that it all becomes more clear soon.

I also finally have my EBT food stamps card. They gave me money from all the way back to when I applied, so I have more than enough money for food now. But the system they have in place is horrible. I have a job that knows we need food stamps. Allows us to go get the EBT card and to go to our appointments. Allows us to use work computers for the app process and also allows us to use the fax machine to fax in forms for it. Now, the average person who needs food stamps isn't going to have many, or even any, of those options. How are they going to be able to accomplish the entire process? Not to mention that if something is screwed up your app gets denied and you have to wait until the next month. I really wish that entire process would get reworked. I swear that this entire experience is so eye opening in so many different ways.

I'm only one month in. That means there are nine more to go and already this has been an experience I wouldn't trade out.