Updatin It

Gah, here I go again, not posting in awhile. Here's what's going on, if you care, haha!

Michael is pretty much a thing of the past. At least mentally. I still see things that remind me of him, but the care part is almost gone. Haha, finally.

Last weekend, or whenever it was, I went out with Taylor, a girl I work with at both of my jobs, and Anita. We started out at Bill's Off Broadway where they ate pizza and I drank - a lot. Anita and Taylor were not originally going to turn this night into a party night, but I convinced them to go out. We settled on Rplace because both Anita and I like that type of music. We drank more and danced our asses off. Every guy that hit on me was instantly rejected. I had other things going on.

We made fools of ourselves this night. However, before we went into Rplace, I briefed Taylor and Anita by saying that if I ever say "Oh, that's Mike." that they were to keep me from doing anything stupid. I know how I get when I'm drunk, and I was totally not doing something I was going to regret. Luckily, he wasn't at Rplace. Or if he was, I never ran into him.

When Rplace started closing down, we were not ready to call it quits. The three of us decided to go to Neighbors were we could continue the party. On the way there, I realized that I was well on my way to being trashed. Or well, I guess I couldn't say that I realized it then because I can look back on it now and know that I was getting close because I could still think and see however inside of Neighbors is another story.

When we got close to the entrance, it was still in time to get alcohol and the underage people were not yet allowed in. So, there was a huge crowd outside. Walking up the door, I could hear someone yelling my name. The voice never registered. Had I still been able to distinguish voices, then I probably would have ignored the calls, but I couldn't. All I knew is that my name was being shouted and that I was going to find out who the fuck knew who I was in this giant city.

Of course, it was Michael. This is so like a bad gay movie. I don't know if he was drunk or not and it didn't matter. All I knew was that it was Mike (this is the first time I had seen him since the morning after Christmas, mind you) and I was drunk. I don't know what I would have done because I still very mad at him as well as still very much into him. We never got to find out because as soon as he started walking over to me, the said the magic words of "Oh, that's Mike." and Anita and Taylor stepped in. They dragged me around the corner away from Neighbors. I didn't want to end the night, which was an option at this point, and I could tell that the girls didn't want to either. So, we decided that we were going to go straight into Neighbors and stay away from Michael.

We did most of that. Michael kept hanging around us in the beginning trying to do who knows what. He was also giving me this look that I remembered. Now, looking back, it was the same damn look he was giving me the first night we met when I was totally dancing with someone else. Michael is a predator, like myself, but apparently one that is hard for me to beat. Besides, he had replaced me in that amount of time we had been apart. Why should I want to be with him? Who knows. Eventually, he moved on. He was completely on the prowl that night. Gross.

Later, when it was time for the underage group to come in (Neighbors is open after hours but does not serve alcohol during this time, so people under 21 can enter and dance, but that's it). There is this guy that I work with at the Gap who I have always thought was pretty attractive. When I first met him, however, I was with Mike, and being interested in someone else while I am seeing someone is completely out of the question for me. He is only 20, which is a bit of a knock for me. I tend to like older and especially like being able to go out drinking legally with someone I am interested in. One thing that is funny is that his name is also Josh and he is also from a more rural environment than this city life we are now both experiencing. I had originally planned on trying to catch up with Josh later tonight but I wasn't trying to be as drunk as I was at the time. Us doing much of anything didn't happen. Anita kept me away from Josh and he went on to dance nearby but with more guys who seem to be more his type than I am.

Anita, who just so happens to also be a lesbian, met a girl at Neighbors. This girl had a friend named Brady who just so happens to be gay. Apparently, I remember none of this part, as soon as Brady and I were introduced, we started dancing and lasted that way for the rest of the night. I do remember dancing with Brady and being inappropriate at the same time, but most of the encounter was completely fuzzed out due to alcohol. Somehow, his number ended up in my phone and we've been talking since then. I don't know where this will go either. I am so picky it's ridiculous. Well, at least I am as far as relationships go and that's all I'm looking for these days.

Since then I've been working a lot for City Year and not so much for Gap. I need the Gap to schedule me more often so I can actually make some money. My hours have really been cut down and it sucks.

This past weekend was amazing. I had to work Saturday, so didn't go out Friday night. However, Saturday night was my soccer team's kickoff party for the new season and we had it at the VIP room of the Purr. I drank my normal cheap wine before hand and had some of my new roommates drop me off. Almost right away, I ran into Mike's two roommates. I talked to them for a minute or two and then went upstairs to be with my team (those two would later came upstairs to talk to me further into the night). It was cool to be around everyone on the team when not dressed for soccer. I had a lot of fun with those guys.

Somehow, I completely skipped the "here comes getting trashed" phase and moved right into the trashed phase. I ended up leaving Purr with Abmel and Travis, and maybe others, but those are the only two I remember. Abmel and Travis both had to fill me in on a lot of what happened that night. When we got there, I think we bought more drinks. I ended up accidentally leaving my debit card there, so I am sure that I bought at least one drink. Travis checked our two coats and him giving me my ticket for my coat was the last vivid memory I have of that night. Abmel said that I instantly approached some guy on the dance floor who was dancing with his boyfriend. Abmel had not been drinking at all, so I believe everything he says about this night, haha. I knew that the two of these guys were together but I was only attracted to the darker haired one that was my height. Not the really tall blond one. We danced and I remember seeing the boyfriend watching and then (Abmel tells me this part happened, I remember doing it, but not with whom) we made out. Abmel said that he thought it was hilarious. The making out part was apparently a problem. The boyfriend separated us and the two started arguing in the middle of the dance floor. Travis thought I was involved in the fight but Abmel just thinks I was the cause of it. Eventually, the two of them started dancing together and they left me on the dance floor. Travis and I started dancing sometime during that. I do remember dancing with him partially. I also remember Abmel leaving.

Travis took me home that night and apparently I was a pain in the ass about getting back to my place. I do remember him getting mad at me in his ride saying that I was completely not helping things. The next day he told me that we were all over the place trying to get back to my house.

I probably made a fool out of myself in his truck. Actually, there is no probably about it, I am pretty damn sure I did considering the bits and pieces of the conversation that I remember. I know for a fact that I told him I liked him - his response is confidential, however.

The next day was our typical soccer game and drinks afterwards. I still so hungover during the game but was fine by the end of it. Most of us, Abmel and Travis included, went to a bar called Changes in Wallingford that is a hodunk gay bar. While we were waiting in line (my soccer team made up 3/4s of the people in there) this game came up to me to ask if we played soccer. I told him that we did and that we had just got done playing. He asked if we knew this was a gay bar and I told him that we did and that my entire team is gay. He was shocked, and so were the rest of his table. That conversation with him was like opening up a ton of questions from the rest of his crew. I had to field all of them as I was the closest guy to them.

We only had a few drinks before we decided that food was higher on the priority list. So, we went right next door to a Thai place and got some food. I had convinced Abmel to buy me my dinner, but wasn't really wanting him to. I only had rice, and was hella cheap. Well, I also had two glasses of wine, but whatever. I sat next to Travis and found out that he is seeing someone, so, while I am still really attracted to him, he is kind of off limits. Plus, he's a vegetarian. I am someone who eats almost no vegetables, how does that work? haha. Oh well.

I don't have a soccer game next week because of the Superbowl and since I didn't get Travis' number, will have to wait two weeks to see what's going on.

At least I have plans for next weekend already, going to a birthday party and probably will be making a fool out of myself all over again!